Saturday, November 19, 2011

Healthy??



Okay.. so this "healthy" thing isn't really that easy...  its really a shame that GOOD HEALTHY FOOD is way more expensive than the quick easy but not necessarily FAST FOOD but its still not as healthy as you would like.... Don't get me wrong... believe me I LOVE FRENCH FRIES.... PASTRIES ... and all the other quick pick up foods...


I have been battling, fighting, and struggling with myself for probably the last 8 years...  Its something that I guess in my mind... denying to myself.. and being frustrated.. because all my life I've NEVER had a weight problem.. in fact I was always pretty scrawny... until I got into Marshal Arts.. through a close family friend and almost a "dare" from a friend.  She won a free years worth of Tae Kwon Do lessons... and asked me to join her.  At the time.. it was the most off the wall things I had ever done.  Well she dropped out after the year .. and I continued on for six years!!  To finally finish with my Second Degree Black Belt!! right before I delivered my daughter at 36 years old.!!  That was the time when I was MOST fit!!! I miss that time.. very much... but that was then and this is NOW.!!


I really wish I could have that BODY back... but age has hit my joints... especially my knees... and with all the pivoting... etc.. I dont know that I could really do that again... and the expense.. has probably at least doubled...  I guess in my own mind I REALLY KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO... and like soooooo many people have told me ... "JUST DO IT!!"  I have a Total Gym here that I'm sure can provide me with a very AWESOME body... but its NOT going to do anything sitting in my dining room!!  The denial in my mind has led to almost 40lbs to be my weight loss goal.. and its truly MY OWN FAULT... Being as I have never had to really worry about losing weight... it is now a MUST...!!  I HATE looking at the clothes I cant wear.. !!  and mainly NOT BEING MY BEST!!




 I think and get angry about this situation almost daily.. and whats really STUPID is I have always had the answer ... its denial that has always interrupted my success... So I guess my answer has been here all along... I've always been interested in health, fitness, mind, body & soul... Thus truly is a change of lifestyle... and mind.. I JUST HAVE TO DO IT ... !!


 We must always have to remember... like my old gynecologist told me "EVERYTHING IN MODERATION!"... But he wasn't the one craving parmesan cheese fries at midnight!!! with wasabi mayo!!!  


Living in positive health and spirit.. 


Aloha & A Hui Hou....